Yes, time does fly. Pigs don't fly, but time does. Almost forty eight years ago I was a young bride. Starry eyed, I thought at last I had found someone who would meet all my needs. I lived a selfish life taking and taking and always wanting more. I gave back very little.
I remember clearly complaining that I needed new curtains and carpets. I nagged and nagged until eventually my patient and giving husband said, "You can't get blood out of a stone. I give you all I have."It was a wake up call for me as I saw the pain in his eyes.
It still was a gradual change from taking to giving and I would like to think that I now give as much as I receive in our relationship.
Someone once said, "Marriage was not meant to make you happy; it was meant to make you Holy. For me that has been the case. I have learnt to forgive. I have learned to be patient. I have learned to be loving and giving. In these areas I am not perfect yet but I'm trying, which is a huge improvement.
As I look back over the years, It's hard to believe that I made many foolish choices. All I can say is that God's Grace and Mercy kept me from destroying everything precious to me. Today I am grateful to Him for sending people into my life to guide and help me when I needed them.
Watching a movie like "Saving Mr. banks" made me realise afresh that no one has a perfect childhood. That is why we need our perfect Heavenly Father to make up the love deficit that we experienced as children and teenagers.
In many ways it is rather frightening to think about time passing. No matter how hard I try I can't fit more into each day than I do. I don't have the time to do everything I want to do and if I try I don't have the energy. So I 'm trying to find a balance between the things I want to do, have to do, and enjoying every day living without feeling guilty.
At this stage of my life I want to live at peace with myself and everyone around me. I don't want the false guilt of the things I feel I Should be doing. There is no cello and piano practice police. There is no Blog police either. I have only three people to please, God, Howard and myself.
